Exhaustion

One of the things that part-time wannabe writers must face is exhaustion. If you have no job, no kids, no responsibilities; then this probably doesn't worry you. You are free to write away. Most of us, though, are pretty strung out by the time we sit down to write even a sentence. For an example, I will use my own situation: full-time job, single dad of two, homeowner who is currently building onto his house, and until recently a part-time business student. It would be nice if I made enough money to hire others to do yard work or clean the house (or if the kids were old enough that I could use them for slave labor [soon!]), but alas, I must do all of that work myself. No wonder so many people fail to write anything.

I try to write often, but I often fail. To all of those who say you must write everyday, tell them to go fuck themselves. I'm tired, goddamn it. Not only does the blank screen mock me with its whiteness, I'm fighting to stay awake when I finally do sit down. The bed calls, TV calls, everything calls; hell, even exercise looks good in comparison to writing. Being mildly successful in seeing a handful of stories published doesn't really guarantee that the effort I put forth will result in anything. If I choose TV over writing, at least I'll gain some pop cultural awareness. So, why do it? Failure is a more likely outcome than success. My eyelids, heavy from working or picking up the house, really want to shut. My back would like me to hit the bed. My brain wants nothing more than to shut itself off. So, again, why do it?

The answer is obvious: I'm a mentally ill patient trapped inside my own mind. I have developed the delusion of a mundane life full of responsibilities in order to best deal with the horrible traumas that keep me in my dank cell. The rats nibble at my uneaten supper as I simply stare at the wall in my straight jacket, thinking of what genius will come from my typing fingertips so that I may show the world my worth. My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.My personal horrors do not define me. My personal horrors do not define me.

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Maybe I'm just tired?
Oh, well