I am so goddamn tired it isn't funny. Lorelai is so cute, but my god the kid can't sleep for more than an hour at a time before she's hungry again. Right now I want to fall asleep at my desk. My eyelids are at half-mast and I have large dark circles under my eyes. Why is it that I've forgotten how sleep deprived I was with the first one? Of course, next to his little itty bitty sister, he seems like a giant; like he grew three feet on the day Lorelai was born. But he is so great with her. He gives her soft kisses and really gentle hugs. How long can this last before they're fighting? Is it too much to hope that they'll wait until college?
But new baby means no writing. I originally had an extra couple of weeks before she came, but she was impatient and wanted out last week. Oh well, that means I'll be back at it sooner, I guess. I did try to write last night, but ended up watching movie trailers on the Quicktime website (The geek in me can't wait for Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles) and browsing itunes (added Jane's Addiction and Sonic Youth) - all with the baby in my hands. I glanced at a couple of stories in progress, but that was about it. I also have to get off my ass and apply for some adjunct faculty positions (have MFA, will travel).
I guess I'll take some kind of a nap this afternoon and force myself to do some work today.
4 comments:
Great photo!
Time to resign yourself to the new reality: surviving on caffeine.
Oh, don't push yourself. That said, I totally understand the need to "feel normal." Do you have a sling? It's a much better way to hold newborns than a front carrier/Baby Bjorn - she can lie cuddled up next to you, very womb-like. And you can be hands-free for typing. And there are tons of other benefits (for her) which I won't boggle your mind with. ;) Take care!
A few weeks after our son was born, I turned to my wife and remarked "y'know, this kind of sleep deprivation would be considered a war crime if they did it to our troops." (thos was in 1991, when we were young and innocent)
It's when they get to college that they stop fighting.
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